Thinking forward, but moving backward

I think the most challenge in life may be "action". With so many good ideas and thinging in mind for many years, I keep wondering how come I fail to achieve anything in life. In my daily life, I simply feel no specific schedule for myself, only to passively follow piggy's. If something is what she dislikes, I can't even think about it. I am completely being controlled by her. If this life can be more healthy, I should follow that schedule without doubt. But it is totally the other way around.
All I need is will!